Fractures of light on the edges of the clouds.
I’m always watching for it.
Watching my boys taste tiramisu for the first time.
Getting a letter in the mail.
I’ve been meditating on the idea of light in the darkness this week.
For me, often darkness = depression + despair.
Which is the theme my links are running along this week…depression.
Confession: Sometimes I just use this space as a place to curate things for my own benefit and hope it’s helpful to someone else.
If you’re not feeling glum this January, consider yourself blessed and maybe bookmark this post for a darker season.
(I will update this page as I find other links and books, so if you have one you love, please share it in the comments.)
Links on Depression
Our pastor preached a sermon a couple of weeks ago on Psalms 42-43 called Despair, Delight and Deliverance. Be assured, I will return to this eloquent meditation on these psalms again and again. (Bonus: David’s beautiful Northern Irish accent.)
I’ve written a bit on the subject myself. The most depressed I ever remember being was in December of 2002, which I wrote about in 2008.
I believe that depression and anxiety are often two sides of the same coin, so I very much appreciated this essay on Surviving Anxiety from Scott Stossel, who has just published a book on the subject. In reading all six pages of the essay, I was rewarded with this brilliant closing paragraph:
In his 1941 essay “The Wound and the Bow,” the literary critic Edmund Wilson writes of the Sophoclean hero Philoctetes, whose suppurating, never-healing snakebite wound on his foot is linked to a gift for unerring accuracy with his bow and arrow—his “malodorous disease” is inseparable from his “superhuman art” for marksmanship. I have always been drawn to this parable: in it lies, as the writer Jeanette Winterson has put it, “the nearness of the wound to the gift,” the insight that in weakness and shamefulness is also the potential for transcendence, heroism, or redemption. My anxiety remains an unhealed wound that, at times, holds me back and fills me with shame—but it may also be, at the same time, a source of strength and a bestower of certain blessings.
These words are true of all the bits of our character that we call weakness.
If you feel kind of sad after reading about depression, I’m so sorry. Maybe consider going for a walk?
I wish you sunshine all weekend long. Even in January.
See you back here on Monday with the first of #48walks or on Tuesday with a story about some rather unexpected art.